even the best fall.

2day is the 1st day without you... it feels really wierd. as if there's i big part of my life lost. many memories good and bad have been created when we were frens. and these memories wil accompany me for the rest of my life. as i reminder of how childish and irritating i am... all good things come to an end. and maybe it end here. still remember how we met? it was months ago... we met be a wierd way as many ppl would think. but you noe it i dun nid to say it here. den we became frens. super good fren as you call it. best fren as i do. i've always regarded you as my good fren no matter how you treated me. whenever you were down i tried to make you smile but, failing attempts after attempts. i would be the 1 listening to your scoldings always. i didnt mind... really. but nvr haf i ever scolded you be4 or yes i did but not as many times as you scolded me. but i didnt care. in chinese,'scold is love beat is teng?' i dunno how to explain it... but you should noe... you always asked me 'do you regret knowing me?' always my answer would be the same old flat no. w/o a second thought. i shld haf known tat you wanted me out of your life. too bad i didnt. i only fell deeper and deeper into this maze. sliding furthur down. thinking tat somewhere below, you would catch me and kick my butt (as you always lyk to do) and send me flying up again. but when i now reach the bottom, i realise that you werent there. and i fell down hard. hitting my head and knocking the senses out of me. i sat there and w8ed thinking that maybe you would send a rope down or something. wrong again. i w8ed and w8ed until finally, i gave up. i broke down. i cried. for the entire nite i couldnt sleep. i kept thinking: 'maybe its really my fault or maybe not. but i dun care. wad matters most is tat now, you have left me. tats wad's hurting me...' i sit down silently on my bed hugging me pillow and reflecting on the happy and sad times we shared... the scolding from jie jie when i kept it from her tat you were sick. and the happy times when i made stupid jokes and laffed non stop. and rmb the time mr yong gave you some stupid book. tat look on ur face was really hilarious. but now, its all gone. knocked out of my head when it hit the floor. everything's gone and i haf to start from nothing. all over again...  what you said last nite really hurt me...you haf nvr used such harsh on vulgar words on me be4... wad's happening to me? can some1 tel me please?

thank you ppl you tried to cheer me up. i noe i'm always laffing. sorry 2day i didnt...

What Hurts The Most- Rascal Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house

That don't bother me

I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while

Even though going on with you gone still upsets me

There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok

But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most

Was being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go

But I'm doin' It

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Still Harder

Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret

But I know if I could do it over

I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart

That I left unspoken

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most

Is being so close

And having so much to say

And watching you walk away

And never knowing

What could have been

And not seeing that loving you

Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you

That's what I was trying to do

Ooohhh....